Goodbye 2020

Subject: Letter to 2020

Dear 2020, 

Where do I start? 

Maybe, it's premature to even start, eh? 

Well, here's what I've to say to you. 

THANK YOU.

When we started romancing around, you gave me so much hope-high hopes, real jitters, and butterflies. It wasn't long before our relationship became rocky. I bitched and complained about you incessantly until I came to terms with our relationship, its limits, and our individual shortcomings.

You, despite so many red flags definitely will go down in history as one of my bests. You made me look inside. You made me come to terms with who I was; who I am. You made me face my biggest fear-uncertainty, and you honed the trait I lacked the most- patience.

You did take away my liberty, but, in that, you gave me the freedom I never knew I had or could ever find. You gave me reasons to love, laugh, to be grateful for, and you taught me the value of today-that I had inadvertently been taking for granted. You taught me, I needed to live today to be able to look forward. That they go hand in hand and aren't mutually exclusive.

You weren't the kindest. But, in your callousness, you taught me to be kind to myself. You taught me, kindness starts from oneself, and I needed to heal before I tried salvaging others. 

And, after holding me hostage to your whims, you made me realize I had a choice to say NO. I had the choice as to how I react to a situation. You taught me, I could be just as kind and nice while drawing boundaries, and choosing myself.

I know I have a long road ahead of me, a lot to learn and do. But, thank you for sparing me this time and my loved ones. I'll forever be grateful for all that you taught me.

Sincerely,

Subs.