Aptitude dilemma.

7/3/2013

Mediocrity, it scares me. Every single cell of my body, it gets traumatized by the concept. It really does. No, I am not being offensive- that would be the last thing I would do, on purpose. But I can’t help it, whenever I get a trailer of that diction, hitting down on me. Damn, it manages to take my breathe away. Not that it is any sort of supernova; it’s just that I am scared to be anything but that. I truly am. Trust me. I have understood that, when you have a hint of where you can go, what you can actually be, you wouldn't settle for anything less.  Whomsoever you manage to convince, whatsoever you manage to do, to conceal your actual capacity, deep within you know what you actually are capable of. Either more or less. It is always a quantitative measurement. You just can’t lie to yourself of your own being, can you? The worst of them all is, when you know where you can go, where you can be, and all you have is, way too low than that. Having known that, darkness cannot be darkened further, but brightness can be brightened further, there lies a hope for a dreamer, who has dreams and aspirations, with zeal to prove his aptitude to no one else, but oneself. That’s the break even  you either move forward, or just don’t. There is no other way around, nor any way out. People have judged me, for many things, they still do. Maybe they are right on their part, maybe they are not. They define me as an overambitious beast, they actually do. And to that, I just have nothing to say. No, don’t you mistake me for a silent introvert, or an idealist who never bombards anyone with number of defensive words. I am heck lot of a dudgeon, when it comes to any kind of assault directed towards me; I just fortify myself in every possible way. So, you ask me, why am I quiet here? Of course you do! My silence, it’s all I have to give, to those people who question my aptitude. Cause, I have been taught that, action speaks louder than words.  I have a task to prove, not to anyone else, but to this self of mine, whom I count on every day, and who counts on me out of all beasts!