Aloneness.

I chose this.
My aloneness.
But, beyond my choices
I feel lonely.
At times.
Though ephemeral,
I do feel it.
That moment, when you realize
You have no one to talk to
None to count on
Every other passer by, every other encounter
Just a manipulation
Accustomed to mankind
You lose your battle their, to yourself.
You wail, you cry, silently.
In that moment, again you assure yourself.
You have come this far, you will make it till the end.
You are a strong soul
Just broken every here and there
You are a strong heart,
Smashed, fixed, yet running
You are a human after all,
Undefeated, yet at loss
Strong yet vulnerable
Dead sure, yet at a fix,
Helpful but hapless
And
An Angel yet a demon.