My version of Enemy.
How easily do we set our enemies? Easily enough?
So, I was just wondering today, after finding a chit in between my old books, that read
"If you love your enemy, you already have the victory"
I wasn't quite content with what it read. It made me think a bit harder. Maybe my horizon has been expanding now, as from where it was in the past. The major point of my concern was not about befriending and loving any enemy or let it be frenimy.
To my own smaller self, the whole storming was entirely about what actually are the conditions for one to be someone's enemy? Was it a coveted life, wealth, health, intellect or so forth? Or was it because of some actions taken by that person against this very person. What is it actually? That we so easily, so subtly, and too often resort to this word "enemy"?
If it has to do with some random jealousy then how would it even make the other being your enemy. Just because the other person has better things for him/herself than you do, is it fair that you see in him/her an enemy? And, if their actions at any point in time was something you wouldn't want for yourself then you could either choose to fight it or just keep silent. The third way of enemizing (if that is even a word) someone is just an idea where we normally find shelter, far from reality. An unreal world within this real world.
I guess I have been beating around the bush too much. Or maybe I lack precision. Whatever may it be, I should now make my point. In between all of this wandering and wondering, I had this self realization that for me, as seen through my own eyes, my inner eyes, my soul and my thoughts, till date I failed myself to get an enemy, in usual sense of the term. For me, an outsider has never been an enemy. Never will be. He/she might not be my friend, but that would just be incompatibility on our parts and not a ground for being tagged as an "enemy". It dawned upon me that, the only enemy I ever had, in my own sense of that term, would be my own self. That being i have loved and hated with equal heart. That being who has been there since I came into existence and would last me my entire life, 'that me', would have to be my enemy. My constant critic, the only reason for my retortion and convulsions would then be me. I have been so hostile to my own self, who has defeated me in several instances. Who has time and again overpowered my weaker self, is then my nemesis. And about loving it, I guess for a hedonist like me, all I could ever do is love this being. This one self, who I know is my only true friend ,my only true foe. However loving it with all my heart has never made me a victor. Cause for me, with every bit of love I carry for this being, an equal portion of abhorrence follows.
I might have hated many things in my life, many people maybe. But for me there always is a distinction between hating a person and turning that person into my archenemy. I contradict my own self here in saying that hatred wouldn't be a ground for me to term someone as my enemy, however that someone applies to everyone except myself.
I take on that opinion of tagging my own self as my foe, if there ever has to be one, for me. :)
So, I was just wondering today, after finding a chit in between my old books, that read
"If you love your enemy, you already have the victory"
I wasn't quite content with what it read. It made me think a bit harder. Maybe my horizon has been expanding now, as from where it was in the past. The major point of my concern was not about befriending and loving any enemy or let it be frenimy.
To my own smaller self, the whole storming was entirely about what actually are the conditions for one to be someone's enemy? Was it a coveted life, wealth, health, intellect or so forth? Or was it because of some actions taken by that person against this very person. What is it actually? That we so easily, so subtly, and too often resort to this word "enemy"?
If it has to do with some random jealousy then how would it even make the other being your enemy. Just because the other person has better things for him/herself than you do, is it fair that you see in him/her an enemy? And, if their actions at any point in time was something you wouldn't want for yourself then you could either choose to fight it or just keep silent. The third way of enemizing (if that is even a word) someone is just an idea where we normally find shelter, far from reality. An unreal world within this real world.
I guess I have been beating around the bush too much. Or maybe I lack precision. Whatever may it be, I should now make my point. In between all of this wandering and wondering, I had this self realization that for me, as seen through my own eyes, my inner eyes, my soul and my thoughts, till date I failed myself to get an enemy, in usual sense of the term. For me, an outsider has never been an enemy. Never will be. He/she might not be my friend, but that would just be incompatibility on our parts and not a ground for being tagged as an "enemy". It dawned upon me that, the only enemy I ever had, in my own sense of that term, would be my own self. That being i have loved and hated with equal heart. That being who has been there since I came into existence and would last me my entire life, 'that me', would have to be my enemy. My constant critic, the only reason for my retortion and convulsions would then be me. I have been so hostile to my own self, who has defeated me in several instances. Who has time and again overpowered my weaker self, is then my nemesis. And about loving it, I guess for a hedonist like me, all I could ever do is love this being. This one self, who I know is my only true friend ,my only true foe. However loving it with all my heart has never made me a victor. Cause for me, with every bit of love I carry for this being, an equal portion of abhorrence follows.
I might have hated many things in my life, many people maybe. But for me there always is a distinction between hating a person and turning that person into my archenemy. I contradict my own self here in saying that hatred wouldn't be a ground for me to term someone as my enemy, however that someone applies to everyone except myself.
I take on that opinion of tagging my own self as my foe, if there ever has to be one, for me. :)
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