Feelings.

She knows she is not confused.
Its just that she feels too often, too much, and too deep.
And she knows that's all she's got.
That freedom to feel.
Cause when everything else failed her
Her feelings they stayed
Even though all she did was, nothing
but curse them
For their existence itself.
And there she is left
With her feelings,
 the ones she despised
With all her might
 When she finally knew
That
All her supposed reality had been an illusion
All her expectations had failed her to the most
When the only thing that decided to stay
Were, her feelings
The one she loathed with all of her heart!!